:: My future husband....

I want to be loved unconditionally.. always.

I want that person to always say that he loves me. that i am the only one he always thinks of.

I want that person to always be by my side (not necessarily being present, just support me) whenever i feel insecure n whenever im at my lowest ground.

I want that person to always touch my hair, n tuck strands of it behind my ear n whispers how lucky he is to have me.

I want that person to see me as not only a lover, but a good friend who he can always come to and share his problems.

I want that person to acknowledge me as someone really important in his life to his friends n family.

I want that person to be fair to me. NO EGO at all (coz i have no ego left in me when it comes to him)

I want that person to call me n say he's sorry for being sucha stupid asshole but is still lucky to have me coz he knows that ill forgive him for his stupidity anyway ( which is true).

I want that person to know that being in love with me is not a GAME. its never about who wins n who losses. its just about how much he cares for me to admit his mistakes n same goes to me.

I want that person to forgive me for being sucha bitch sometimes. but only because i love him so much (he doesnt noe that)

I want that person to stop being so egoistic n just love me for who i am.

I want that person to know that life right now may seem like this. but we always got to believe that it will get better. as long as we are together n we put effort together.

I want that person to know that any problem in this world ade jalan penyelesaian nye. there is nothing that cant be fixed !!!

PRESENTATION ;)

Yes! we did well !!! This is my last presentation b4 completing my degree :)

I've been stuck

I need to go out. I can't stay at home everyday like this doing nothing. Everyday the same old routine. I'm sick of sitting in front of the laptop all day long surfing this freaking internet. Boleh gila.

Another reason why I need to get a life is because the longer I stay in the house, I have full confidence that I boleh gila for the reason that my mind won't stop thinking about this and that. Like I wanna sleep so badly but my mind doesn't want to shut. I've been thinking too much. Come on, I do not have anything else to do, thus my mind keep thinking. Thinking about the present and the future. Thank God, I rarely think about the past. Perhaps I'm the type who forgets. I must do something that can distract my mind from thinking nonsense.

My body needs to do something that can make me feel tired in order for me to get a very deep sleep. For instance, if you go out and do something, get home feeling worn-out ,you'll definitely fall asleep easily, correct? But if you just stay at home, lazing around, do nothing.... you don't have the point to fall asleep, don't you? Maybe I should start jogging or something.

hurmmmm

You will never notice me crying.

Perhaps it's because you don't know me well enough even though you said that you do but you are actually not, I guess.

I'm afraid that you are not the one for ......

I've noticed few things that make me feel a little bit uneasy about us..But I don't know..I might be wrong, hurm...

Hoping that this is just a test from HIM.

I'm not READY ~ pffft

Final exam is just about 1 month.. I can feel the air of tense sipping in slowly~
why oh why, every time there's exam, I'd go nuts! half mental, half psycho, half retard, half gloomy, half moody, bape banyak half da.
Even though things are not as complicated as it used to be, but my attitude towards exam stays the same. LAZY ASS BITCH. why oh why?

but i do have planned something out for my exam preparation this semester.
Hope it'll work out. Thanks to someone, who encouraged me to do an early prep this sem.;)

and still, i don't know why hati gundah gulana every time i think of exam. cuak ke? da berbelas tahun belajar pon still cuak lg? OMG noora! where's your leklu~-sapkok lu~-attitude mcm time2 freshman year dulu? Patot makin lama stdy, makin relax, cool, n calm. Ini, lagi da tua, lagi cpt gelabah kenapa????? It shows, sy dah tua sebenarnye. fikiran da matang, so de pk panjang sket. that's why bile pk exam, pk result, pk keje, pk future, pk money..Oooouuuhhhh..so many things to think and worry about.
(-_-)

ok STOP.
the important thing is, WALK THE TALK!
promise?????? yessss....i promiseee..atleast, for now. heheh.

my words....

Yes, We can't tell the future and we don't have the power to control our fate and destiny. Things might not end up like we wanted to. BUT, as long as you're with me I promise...

-I'll appreciate you for as long as we're still together.
-To love you wholeheartedly,
-Be as sincere as possible,
-Make sure you'll be the happiest man alive,
-lend a hand when you need one,
-To share tears and laughter,
-To give the sweetest smile, ;)
-Make the best out of everything I have with you.
and Lastly, to be thankful for having you in my life....

i love you b!

Memory Loss / pelupa syndrome

I hate it when i cant remember the words that accurately explains certain situation/stuff/behavior.

When this happened , i got utterly frustrated and tried so hard to squeeze every bits of my brain juice to work !

I think i might have the early symptom of Memory Loss Syndrome. MLS.
MALAS more like it!

Kenape?

Sebab
MLS nak membaca like i used to.
MLS nak menulis like i was once before
MLS nak refer to dictionary when i come across a new vocab that i arent familiar with. That used to be a good habit of mine but along the way , i think that habit gradually faded away. I think the internet turn me into this.



huh watever