i feel good ;)

It took me 3 years to actually realise that i do love him with all my heart n that everything will be okay if we go tru it together.=) i love him more n more as each day passes by n i do look at him as my bestfriend n not only a lover. we come from a different background n lifestyle. but so far, so good.

I FEEL GOOD

Whatever that you did to other people, you're gonna get it back. BIG TIME!

KEEP MY WORDS!

:'(

i am literally crying right naw. it just hurts too much..i am totally unwanted. inappreciatively ignored. i rase sedih. i just sometimes breakdown n cry, n i havent cried in quite awhile. nobody gets me.nobody understands me. i try so hard not to cry, because i dont want other people to think of me as someone who cant live without attention, love n moral support all the time. but the fact is, i do. i am just like every other human being in this world. i pun nak someone to be there for me when i really need someone to talk to, or to share my problems with.. if i nanges sket je..nanti orng ingat im not tough enuf to face this world or something. if i nanges sket je, people akan ingat i ni melebih2 or watever.all they think is i nanges for something completely remeh n stupid. but life is soo unfair. everyone deserves to be happy. sume orng tak tau what im going tru n stuff. i depend totally on NOTHING. its something i shud be proud of, but i have feelings too u noe. i just feel sad....i might sound okay..but i try really hard to avoid making everyone so worried about me. its just sad u noe. i just cant take it anymore. i hate crying. it makes me feel weak..but what can i do, its only normal to feel this way.. i rase macam i have nobody. nobody at all.. all those promises. just simpan baik2 je la k.. jangan la bwat janji yang u x boleh tepati. gave me alot of hope but not really into it..i just want to end this. i hate crying ;-((

Raya with babess

So on the 1st day raya , I went out with bunch of friends. Beraya. Went to few houses only.

I should just upload the pictures :)

from left yaya, ieqa, ieja and ME =)

After all day raye than at nyte we decided to watch movie ( Going to the distance)

RAYA yawwwwwww

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE! ;)

I'll be with you..I'll stay by urside..♥ u syg kuh syd fuad :)

FACEBOOK'ing' alot

Finally, i've deleted those people that i don't know from Facebook!! Rasa lega yang amat, plus they won't mess up my facebook page anymore... But i am still confuse in configuring the privacy setting... Sometimes there are 'things' that you only wish to share with certain people, right? And some things you wish ALL of your family members will know and join in the conversation. Heck, i really need to set up some time to filter my friendlist now that the 'unknowns' are gone! Hehehe :)


Oh yea, i hate Friendster! I am thinking to delete it. But before that, i need to transfers or updates the hundreds of friends i have there! i hope all of them are in my facebook list already!

Oh technology, you're getting more and more and more complicated. Lepas nie, semua orang kena beli BB so that boleh BBM aje la pulak!

Yang Terindah..

to my dearest one and only...

Tiada lagi keresahan
Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku
Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan
Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah
Maaf jikaku tidak sempurna
Tika bahagia mula menjelma
Bila keyakinan datang merasa
Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran

Mencintai dirimu
Merindui dirimu
Memiliki dirimu

Hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu
Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah
Kau yang bernama cinta
Hingga aku rasa indah

until death do us apart. .....

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

SALAM RAMADHAN ;)

Sorry didn't update my blog.

I've been busy lately

Nothing much lately.

Same old same old.

I want to wish you guys Salam Ramadhan and Selamat Berpuasa!

:)
xoxo

3rd ANNIVERSARY =)

It has been 3 years now..3 years already. Time fly so fast! Its like i just know him yesterday..Hope he likes what i'm getting him ♥♥♥

I LOVE U moreee syg!!

STRESS

Had my Project Management quiz today.

It was.. okay. Okay here means not so good. :(

The short answer question and case study was okay. Because that's what the lecturer asked us to read. So, basically, we all have prepared the answers. But then again, hope for the best!

But the Multiple Choice Questions was like.. wherww! Dude. I just have to pick one answer and it is so damn hard.

Gahhhhhh!

Stress aku.

I've been focusing so much on the writing section till I somehow neglected the MCQs.

Gahhhhh

This is so not cool.

Not cool at all.

But, overall, It's OKAY. Okay here means Okay. Okay?

-.-"

AND plus, I sat directly under the aircond, and it was FUCKING COLD!

Damn it.

BULL SHIT

Have you ever feel that everything you do seems wrong?
Have you ever feel that everything happened around you seems wrong?
Have you ever feel everything that is in place right now seems wrong?
Have you ever feel like wanna smash something and just scream?
Have you ever feel so mad till you feel that everything you do is fucking bullshit?
Have you ever feel so mad till you don't feel like talking?
Have you ever feel that whatever you likes to do seems bullshit?
Have you?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
This feeling is so fucking bullshit.

DI SAAT...

Di saat

Disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang
ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya


Disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya
ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya


Disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya
ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya


Disaat kamu ingin menduakannya
bayangkan jika dia selalu setia


Saat kamu ingin membohonginya
ingatlah disaat dia jujur padamu



Maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu
Jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak disisimu,
Kamu baru menyadari semua arti dirinya untukmu




Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari



Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian



Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah, "Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"



Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..



Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan



Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa



Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.

oooo yeahhh~

Jay Z ft Alicia Keys - Empire State of Mind

In New York

concrete jungle where dreams are made,

ohThere's nothing you can't do,

now you're in New York

These streets will make you feel brand new

Big Lights will inspire you, let's hear it for New YorkNew York, New York.

One hand in the air for the big cityStreet lights, big dreams all looking pretty

No place in the world that can compare

Put your lighters in the air,

everybody say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

This song makes me feel..

Ahhh Damn it!I want to go to New York.

Badly.

It's the greatest city in the world!

Something crosses my mind when I heard this song..

Why don't have my honeymoon there?

It's sooo perfect!!

Ahhhhhh Live my dreams there.

Then go to Italia, Upper East Side, all those fantastic places.

That is my biggest dream.

My big fat dream.

:)

TREAT ME WELL syg~

This is makes me think..

While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear. While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is. While you HURT your woman, there's a man wishing he could make love to her. While you make your woman CRY, there's a man stealing smiles from her.

Treat your woman that they deserve.

And this will always remind me to ALWAYS treat my partner the way that he deserves.
Yes, I make mistakes. Sometimes, I can be angry at him, annoyed and mad at him like my feelings that only matters. But after that, I felt guilty and sorry. I always wanted to turn back the last few 20 minutes and try to control my anger. Try to treat him nicely. Talk to him in a softer way. Stop correcting him like everything he did is wrong.

Because this what I always remember,


While you SCREAM at your man, there's a woman wishing she could talk softly in his ear. While you HUMILIATE or DOESN'T CARE HOW HE FEELS or BLAMING HIM, there's always a woman flirting with him and reminds him that he deserves someone better. While you IGNORE your man, there's a woman wishing she could satisfy his lust/he wish there is a woman that can make love to him. While you make your man DOWN or UPSET, there's always another Bitch trying to steal him away from you.

.
..
...

To my dearest love, FUAD

Thank you for your love and patience. For being kind and honest. I love you every bit of my heart. Forgive me for anything that makes you feel annoyed, mad and upset. And sorry for being a jerk at times. Whatever my actions, I do love you. No doubt. May I be a great wife and mother to your children in the future. You try your hard to please me. You try your best to make me happy. You are willing to sacrifice your time, and energy just for me. You are the greatest man one can find. I love you, SYG~
and I really DO!

Lagenda Budak Setan

I watched Lagenda Budak Setan last night.
It was okay. Not bad.
Lisa Surihani was superb in that movie.
And the main plots in the movie are somehow the same as in the novel.
Of course, the novel is better.
Well, I can't wait for the second part of the movie.
WHICH, the baby will die, and Fazura came back i think.
*Emm like in the novel.* the novel that i read which i was in form 5! ahaha

Kasha is being a good ♥er to Ayu and he's willing to faced everything he has, just for Ayu. He swear Ayu is the only princess in his heart till the end of life.. i like Kasha said "Aku tak pernah berhenti cintakan Ayu" ;')

here i stuck with the songs
~Bila Cinta~

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Ternyata memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Dalam harapan

p/s the playlist above played the songs..but i dunno whether it work it or not... sorry

tade keje!~

1.Perkara yg membuat and tension?
>>bila dgr mak membebel

2.category bf anda?(hansome, biase, buruk)
>>kiut di mata saya.

3.Makanan kegemaran anda?
>>McD! yeayyy ye ke???

4.perkara apa anda teringin sgt nk buat wif ur bf?
>>masak bersama2 (bkn sekadar meggi aje!)

5.perkara apa anda teringin sgt nk buat dengan kwn karib anda?
>>pergi indon nak shoppin dah nak kat setahun tggu.

6.anda tidak suka..
>>bila org menipu utk jaga hati kita..WTH!!

7.Kawan baik anda adalah...
>>seorang yang funny,memahami dan sempoi & juge suke bergelak ketawa kuat2 mcm dunia milik kami!

8.anda seorg yg..
>>kdng2 slow,baik hati,penyanyang haha

9.anda paling bengang dengan bf anda apabila...
>>dia marah2 pada benda yang tak sepatutnya..motif...?

10.anda tidak suka jika mereka kata anda..
>>"fikir cun"

11.ape membuatkan anda menyangi bf anda?
>> dia tak buat apa2 pun saya tetap sayang dia. (bangge la tu ;P)


12.hari ni anda sgt?
>> malassss...

13.angan2 anda adalah?
>> ada sebijik rumah free hold kalau boleh rumah besar corner lot baik punyee..siap suming pool

14.apa keinginan anda?
>> skang rasa nak kaya je..sebab nak rasa buat semua benda.

15.perkara yg xakan anda lakukan?
>> tak berfikir sebelum buat sesuatu.. fhm?

16.bf anda seorang yg?(sila berikan 5)
>> xromantik,degil,panas baran,suke ikut kepale die je,borosssssss

17. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
>> seorang yg baik hati tapi malangnyee saye da taknak die

18. Mungkin saya patut:
>> start build my life again..from the beginning.

19. Saya suka :
>> bila bf saya happy and we are happy together!

20.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
>> adalah harta yang tak ternilai ;D

21.Saya tak paham :
>> kenape tibe2 lecturer saye bengang,mara2 dan terus keluar dari kelas smbil menghempas pintu

22.Ramai yang berkata :
>> kau makin kurus padahal...rase mcm otw nak jadi adibah noor.

23.Makna nama saya :
>> cahaya sempena nor sbb nora takde makne (ustaz ckp)

24.Cinta itu adalah :
>> subjektif,too cliche..cinta itu adalah terapi utk seseorang.

25.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
>> duduk di mn melayan perasaan..pergghh best.!

26.Saya akan cuba :
>> utk jadi kaya,selalu bersyukur dan menjadi anak serta gf yang terbaik heheh

27.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
>> sampai mati.

28.Telefon bimbit saya :
Sony ericsson lebih 10x jatuh ttp berfungsi..hebat ..?

29.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
>> tgk jam n tido balik..

30.Saya paling meluat apabila :
>> org kutuk saya belakang2,adesss.

31.perkara yg anda sgt gemari?
>>tidur,melepak,selain berjumpe encik Fuad saye ;)

32.apa fav food bf anda
>> heh ape yeh..rase die suke mkn ikan keli tp itu mcm lauk..tibai je.

33.apa fav drink bf anda?
>> die suke minum teh o ice..kan sayang..?

34.bf anda suka sgt( sila berikan 5)
>> ingat die ensem,kereta dia,ikan dia,membazir,melenting (hambek kau!)

35.Bf anda seorg yg..
>> pemarah,pengeras hati' HAHA..tp sy tetap sayang dia

36.perkataan yg selalu diucapkan kepada anda ialah..
>> i sayang u ( ni dulu)
>> u tutup pintu kete tu jgn pegang cermin,i baru lepas lap (ni sekarang)
>> yayang,i tdo dulu love u (mmg hari2 ckp bnda ni)

37.keadaan fizikal bf anda?
>>AUWWWW.....gewramnye rase mcm nak sepak je..serius betol kot..shedap2..

38.apa tujuan anda menulis note ini?
>> saje syiok sendiri..tade keje..boring

39.bahasa yg diucapkan ke atas anda adalah..
>>bahasa melayu lah..ape hipo nk ckp english..huh. kadang2 poyo ckp english juga

40.perkara romantics penah dilakukan ke atas anda ialah..
>>die dtg rumah saye bwk bunge ( i think 1st n last kotttt)

41.bf anda seorg yg sgt..
>> ok sy akui dia terlalu baik di mata saya sometimes dia cute..wlupun pemarah tp die cpt cool selepas di pujuk

42.Bf anda tidak suka jika anda..?
>> pakai skirt,melawan ckp..mmg selalu kene tiaw kowt..n tak punctual..yeahh itu mmg saya.

43.Benda kesayangan bf anda ialah
>> huh tak yah cakap ..kereta la ape lagi..kalau akulah kete tu haihhh.. (hahah jgn tak ngaku lak!)

Hey LOSER!!!

Hey! hey you!! Yes you!!! Stalker who read this

U know why i call u loser?? hell yeahh
I know someone who hated me so much, but she still stalk my profile quietly... She is loser don't u think? hahahahah!!!

U hated me but u still stalk my profile!

erghhhhhh....stop stalking me!

it's weird when u know they hated u but they still checking out your profile and wants to know what are u up to... or are u admirer me??? owwwhhhhh NO! NO! Plsss dont

saye sedih ;'(

When i wrote this, my tears drop ;'( sumpah i cant handle this

U dun have to remind me coz...

I know myself better than you..you..and you!!

I know where i stand for

I know what shud do

I know my limit

I know my weakness

I know my standard level

If you like me, then thank you! If u dont like me then leave me!

owwww shit i tak boleh nak type byk2...my head is spinning around...i sangat2 sedih!! I need shoulder to cry..anyone?? plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss..this is so fucking shit ;'(

privacy

yeahhhh no one knows about this blog! i mean My blog..i secret it from others..only certain peeps which is i select knowing this blog..( so guys u shud proud dat u r selected ;) )
I used this blog to express how i feel, my thought, my sadness, my hapiness n all my lah! nak mencarut maki hamun org pun thru this blog juga ;) but not all the things i wrote in this...

If i published my url blog in the facebook or any web, i'm sure kwn2 /stalker sebok2 kat blog nie as u can see my fren list kat facebook pon da around 600++ tuh pon byk da di tapis...kalu nak approve semua mmg 1000++ la kot...errrrrrr

Maybe 1 day i'll open it to public.. ;)

arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Arghhhhh shit!! shit !! fakkk laaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!
sial laaa kau!!!!!!!!!! kau bodo!!!!! mati lagi baik!!!!! pig!!!!!!!
aku benciiiiiiiii kau!!!!!!! get out of mylifeeeeee!!!!!!!!

I'm malay..

Aha. Saya ingat cina, bile tgk name, melayu rupenye.

Hhm..okay..acceptable. Not saying i'm proud to be getting that kind of remarks, but i do get that often, so no surprise. But honestly, maybe i look at myself everyday, i can't notice the difference. But hmm..where's the chinese?I mean which part?I use to think it could be the eyes. My eyes are kindda small. But then i use eyeliners to make my eyes look bigger. Doesn't help does it? Okay, so my skin is fair though i do use makeup, helps a little.

That's kindda alright you know, because well...i'm not really pure malay (siam,ind0n bla bla) (com'on we all aren't). There's mix of every type of race, and that's what we get. A production of "can't really know what she/he is". = )

Knape???knape??

Due to the tittle as above persoalan disini adelah kenape???kenape?? Okay! ape yang saye cube persoalkan disini adelah...(gile lame) kenape perlu curang (kna bg highlight) and kenape perlu tidak jujur in a relationship???? Knape??kenapa?? ini bkn persoalan bagaimana tapi persoalan kenape??kenapa oowwwww kenapa (pls stop me!)

Maybe kerane mereka2 ini tergolong dlm :
1) golongan org yang tidak tahu berterima kasih???
2) golongan org yang tidak tahu menghargai???
3) golongan org yang bodo mencari cinta sejati la konon...

Atau mungkin:
1) Gf/Bf mereka tak best??
2)Gf/Bf mereka tak macho/cun?? (mcm la kau lawa/hensem sgt bodo!anjing!)
3)Gf/Bf mereka juge curang (mungkin)

For me, org yang curang adelah org yg boleh di labelkan sbg org yang tidak tahu utk berterima kasih or org yang tak tahu utk menghargai...Ini adelah tidak adil bg mereka yg dicurangi...as u know, LOVE is blind and i admit it!! LOVE can make us being STUPID sumtimes... and LOVE is wonderful ;)

Tp bg saye, pabila saye telah menyanyangi seseorng itu maka tiada lah istilah curang dlm diri saye(seriusssss) kerana saye amat menghargai org yg menyanyangi saye..no reasons utk saye berlaku curang,unless saye dicurangi di belakang beliau... (itu cerita lain) Jika ini berlaku kepada saye,ape yang boleh saye katakan adelah ''tiada maaf bagimu'' cheewah n i'll hate u for the rest of mylife n saye mengharamkan nama beliau dlm diri saye (perghh mmg betul2 mara ni) Saye benci PENCURANG!!! yeahhhhhhhh

But seriusly i tell u...the most things yang paling saye takut adelah perkataan CURANG,DICURANGI atau MENCURANG (ishhh ape aku ni)

Maka dgn ini sayangilah org yang menyanyangi kamu sepenuh jiwa ;)

I'm alright

please someone , lift this huge unseen burden on my shoulder..anyone??
hmm

on my second thought, takyah laa

let

me

be

on

my

own.

do not console me!
do not comfort me!
do not persuade me!
do not sympathize me

i can handle this by my own tiny self
noora always appear happy eventhou her heart is practically shattered to desruction..takpe
noora ok je..la la la lalal ;') grow up! grow up!!

TENGKU NOORA

She's fussy, unlike the other girls. She knows herself and she knows that she's not perfect, but she spends her time having fun and doing the best with what she's got... She is insecure about what the future holds for her !!
She doesnt knows if she could satisfies the people that hold so much hope on her . Whatever she ought to decides will definitely affects the people she love, the people she wud treat her life for.... ----> definitely TENGKU NOORA

Find a man that, willing to sacrifice absolutely anything for you, not during the early stage of your relationship but throughout the relationship. Sacrifice for you even though how hard it is, and how tiring it is. Find a man that, loves you for who you are. Accept your weaknesses and your UGLIEST attitude. Find a man that patient with your attitude that can be SO annoying to others, and mature. Because this type of man, shall be the greatest man you can find.

Credits to SAYED FUAD for being that perfect-for-me man.

i LOVE u!!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

My Mr.Sempurna

to mr.sempurna,

i want you to know that u have brought the feeling that i have been longing for back into my life. u have made me the happiest girl in this world. U have rekindled the sparks that has never been for a long time. even though theres many people are judging you, you still stand by me. to be loved by you is one of the greatest rewards in my life. heres are the 7 things i love about you:

7. u are the most comfortable person to talk with
6. u are very caring
5. u are very good in handling the situation when we fight
4. u are very sweet
3. u know when to be playful and when to be serious
2. u are always there when i need you
1. u changed my life

well what about 7 things i hate about you:

7.
6.
5.
4.
3.
2.
1.

theres nothing to hate bout you
i just love everything about you

it's a GOOD day ;)

at times like this,
i am happy to be loved by him!
i am happy to be doing my degree
i am happy to have those lovers in my life

thanks for reminding me to have control.

thanks for admiring my strength.

thanks for telling me that i stand well on the principles that i have made up.

seriously, thank you.

alhamdulillah :)

PERGHHHH AKU GEMPAK!

Yesterday, I woke up around 8.15 am, and I studied from 8.30 am till 4.30 pm!cuz i ot no class at all..

Oh my god!

Seriously!

I feel like my ass is getting rounder and bigger sideways. -.-"

8 hours of studying! Gila betul.

Anyways, I had lunch for 1 (ONE) hour only! Watched drama in tv, while eating.

Then, continue studying till 6.30pm. cuz 6.30 i watch ADAMAYA stuck on it;) sweet couple!

Oh my god! Gila penat okay!

Then at night i studied till 11.30 pm! wwwwwoooooowwwwwwwwww

That's why I said.. Aku Gempak. Gempak boleh study straight. -.-"

Dear sayed mohd fuad...

i want u 2 know that today is the 2nd best feeling i ever had,the 1st best was when the first time we met.. and syg, our journey starts here.. no one ever ever ever never give me this special feeling.. only u did! and by doin that u bring up sometin new in me which i never know it was here inside me.. im glad to say that, and i want everyone to know that..i wont be able to get this feeling again ever AND never forget this moment until the day i die.. i'm proud to say that i feel that i am somebody now to somebody which that somebody is not that ordinary boy. this boy is amazing and the boy is you! and lastly i'm so proud to say to everyone that now u're mine and im ur's.. eternity... love u so much b..."

I love you so much, sayang.

and thanks also for this birthday present...

BUFFDAY!

YEaaaahhhh today.....

i'm turn to 24!!! well, 24 is just only the number !!!

thanks for all the wishes dear frenssss...sorry if i didnt reply to u...byk seh, tak larat nak reply one by one ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ;)

tomorrow i'm going to celebrate it wiff my bb ;) later i post sum of the pict....

wishes!!

I wish that i have my own kids!!! I Love kids, bringing them out..buying ice cream, toysss wee ;)
I just want a baby, i mean a baby after i get married of course ! syg plz marry me as soon as possible.. **gile**

YOU!

You just keep appearing in my thoughts. Talking. Smiling. Talking. Laughing. I'm trying to focus on my work and I can't stop to wonder how would it feel being close to you, touching you, kissing you. I lay at night wondering how good it would be having you next to me, just close to me, wrapped inside my arms. I just wanna hold you really close to me during a rainy night, keeping you warm and being able to spend hours looking into your eyes. Just all that.

Just u !! Sumpah i syg u sgt!

Phhhhewwwwwwww

Long time I haven't update this blog.

Been busy AND at the moment, I'm disconnected with the wireless
Like seriously.
No broadband. And my broadband cannot use in Unisel..no connection
Been calling the hotline to assist with the problem and all but still cannot connect.

What else happened yea for the past few days...
Nothing much really.
Went to classes as usual.. Get back home, sleep for awhile, went out to eat, study.
Same thing over and over again.
Seriously. I'm getting bored with my routines. :0

Need to get away for awhile, I guess. Go somewhere and do the 'Guess Where Am I?' thing, you know.. ;)
Anywaysss, lately been busy studying. need to study like seriously hard, man!

Lately...

Lately, I've been very sensitive.

No. Not that emotional sensitive.

I can't really do things fast or in a fast movement, cuz later I'll get headache.

I cannot eat so much like I used to cuz my throat feel painful. Not that there is tonsil or I'm having a cough or something. It's just.. dry.

I cannot read my textbook for hours and hours like I used to because later I'll be very dizzy looking at those small cramped fonts

I cannot be under the sun cuz later I'll have headache!!! sux~ man

I cannot stare at the computer screen for so many hours like I used to cuz the bright light makes me feel dizzy.

What is wrong with me?

:(

Anyways, had my B2B test just now.

It went well.

HOPE it went well.

Next, Financial management plus with the Quality Management in one day

Which means, DIE!

Hot!! hot!! sooooo HOT

I'm not feeling well today.Maybe cuaca yang sgt2 panas !

Started from last night.

Headache, and my body is aching...

And now, my body is starting to heat up.

No food.

Hungry.

:(

FINALLY.... cutting my hair SHORT !!!

Yessssssss
I cut my hair yesterday!!

I cut my hair short.
and I love it like hell! ;)
Its.. nice. hehe ** weeekkk perasan ** lalalala
and maybe because its something different.
Not that my boring straight
I think I'm more comfortable with short hair. hihi
Anyways, during the hair cut, I decided to color my hair.
Like highlight la..
Get it?

All I can say now is.. it is worth every $$$ I spent on my haircut!
Gosh!
And I'm satisfied with it. :)

Bluarghhhhhh !!!!!!

MENINGGALKAN??? or DITINGGALKAN???

I think BOTH is hurt! Sometimes we have to let our love ones go by having their own life if they are no HAPPY with u..yessss we have to do so!! If that what they want.....

and sometimes if die rase yang kite ni bkan lah TERBAIK untuk die, eventho da mcm2 kite buat untuk dapatkan HATI die sepenuhnye..one thing u have to remember " NO BODY PERFECT !! " and maybe kite ni bukan lah seperti ape yang die nak, so that die pon mencari2 lah org lain yang die rase maybe TERBAIK untuk die.... Let they go. Pray the BEST for them... I know..its HURT and really HURT!! but at least u already try ur best and do the BEST for them, tapi die still tak nmpak and tak rase kite TERBAIK ....

ITs HURT when peop do not APPRECIATE us.... CHILL urself !!!

KAU PERGI....

Al-Fatihah for him...

He is my old n gud friend i ever had ! I just cant believe that he already passed away.. He passed away becoz of bee alergic, his internal organs were swollen then it blocked his respiratory organs.. ;(

I know him almost 17 years and our 1st met when we're at 8 years old n a lots of memory together... we're going to the school together, play together, swimming n etc... OMG ;(


my dear friend...will always pray for u..ur in a better place..no one can replace u as a good friend..u gave me alot of advice n u really were there when i need someone to talk ..may ur soul rest in peace.. al-fatihah..

Al-fatihah for Shahnaz Fadhli
May he Rest In Peace there...

I hate this!!!!

I have always this kind of ... character.

Not to say that I'm kind or whatsoever, its just that I can't or don't know how to react back.

The thing is, I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TEND TO MAKE FUN OF SOMETHING OUT OF ME.

Get it?

I HATE IT. READ MY LIPS. FUCKING HATE IT.

AND THE THING THAT MAKES ME MORE FRUSTRATED IS WHEN I COULDN'T SAY ANYTHING BAD BACK AT THEM, THAT CAN HURT THEIR FEELINGS.

I just can't when it has something to do with friend's friend OR friend's friend's friend OR whatever lah. ' bile kau ckp aku boleh..bile aku cakap balik kau nak terasa palak kan!!!! '

But to those people that I HATE, ooo yes, I'LL SPEAK RIGHT BACK AT YOU. DIRECTLY.

I can't say bad things or say things that I know it will hurt them *like friend's friend*.

And I don't know how to react to those kinds of statements. Should I laugh when I don't really feel like laughing? Should I ignore and be patient when they tend to do it more often?

Feeling hurt and feel like want to scream at this someone's face. But all are stopped because of friendships.

THAT is just bullshit.

AAAArrghhhh Hate it when I have to take care of people's feelings but they don't take care of other people's feelings.

No manners.

They call it as 'gurau', I call it immature.....

Hard Time maybe ;( sighhhhh

Had a lot going on lately ;(

I have "Operation Mngmt (OM)" assignment which I haven't started anything yet.

Not even research...havent found the tittle for my reseach yet!!!!

Gosh! My group partners are going to kill me :P

The subjects taken is getting tougher and tougher.

When the lecturer thought me how to do it, I get it. I understand.

But when I try to do it on my own, I will go blank. Don't know how to do... (biase la tu konon 100% faham )

My "OM" Class is so BORING!

EXACT SAME THING.

But WHY I felt bored EVERYTIME SHE TEACHES?!

WHY WHY WHY WHY?

I tell you why, because she spent like 10-15 minutes explaining on ONE slide.

Literally.

And, she gave examples that have grandmother story.

"OM" subject should be fun!

Goshhhhh.

I rather skip the lecture and attend the tutorials.

Anyways, few things need to do:

1) Finish the tutorial chapter 5 & 6 as well

2) Start search the tittle for buss reseach otherwise she wont allow me to enter the claz ( gilee btol ! )

Due Date: Next week before Chinese New Year!

Hurmmmmmmmm

hello !!! Do i Know You?????

So far in my facebook account or my space or etc n watever account i have include YM also, lots of unknown people add me to their friends list..the point is sometimes i hardly know u..or hardly remember u..or do we play together during childhood? or during school years? or mase tgh tunggu bas? oh tidak! seriuosly i won't simply add frends that i really can't recall our relationship...or am i just too famous? heheheh sometimes sister's friends..friend of friend..

adoyyy sorryla yerkk..one more thing if your profile pics is not ur pict or using other pict..kalau check profil tengok tulis female n tahun lahir, nama pulak bukan nama sebenar.what da heck? u think i know u??

The Moments

Owhh yess i know that i dun really spend much time in my blog! i admit it..and it was the reasons my blog looks boring!!!!! yeeeahhh boringggggg!!!

All the things are just fine at the moment! ;)
It would be great if I've captured all the great moments I had in my life in pictures and videos. Unfortunately, I didn't. Never mind, I've captured those moments in my heart thooo ;)

hahahhaha boring riteeee
wat ever!

My BLOG will be in "rojak mamak" hahahaha

Okay, starts TODAY my blog will be in "ROJAK" language, as following 1 Malaysia ( rojak ) i can wrote in bahasa, english or even mandarin ( huhuhu next sem i will take mandarin)

WE IGNORE THE ONE'S WHO ADORE US
ADORE THE ONE'S WHO IGNORE US
LOVE THE ONE'S WHO HURT US
AND HURT THE ONE'S WHO LOVE US

sgt ironic kan?

well, eventho we are tring to live in denial
we did tend to hurt org yg kite syg (cheewah)
reality check, bende ni, most of the times, bukan nye sengaje ke ape
ia berlaku tanpa kita sedari
tau tau je, kite TERsakit kan hati org tu
dh terhantuk, baru tergadah...paham?
tak paham takpe

anyways, i pon same
dh byk kali terjadi
n setiap kali tu jugak i promise not to repeat the same mistake
BUT !!, it still happent
again and again annnndddd again

till at one point of time
i rase i don't deserve to be loved
sbb tak dpt jd anak/sister/friend/gf/student yang good good org kate
tak payah nk kater terbaik
yg baik tu pon cam samar2 je
cam baik aku ni mati je
tak payah org lain sakit hati kerana aku
tak payah nk susah kan org lain

but this time around
I did a pact
a promise
a promise yg kalau i langgar, i sendiri akan merana
kirenye makan diri sendiri laaa
but WTH !
utk org yg i sayangi, i sanggup
asalkan i can be a better person

maka dgn ini
me, T.E.N.G.K.U N.O.O.R.A berjanji
tidak akan sama sekali menyaikiti org yang saya sayang!